Yesterday I didn't have much time for art.. this was a quick play on an altered book page. and today… has been pretty much a write off and one where.. I began a project that I've been wanting to do for a while 'just for the fun of it'… and I'm realising all too often how.. that is not necessarily easy when you 'think' you ought to be creating proper stuff… and any and all playing and experimenting is wasted time. This creating every day in June challenge is making me realise what a freakin battle I create/live-inside-of sometimes… I'm aware to not make it WRONG… but just being present to it can be damb painful… and as I was struggling with the fact I just don't want to paint today . . . I simply brought my honesty to a page… . . . it's not requiring me to fix it, make it pretty, perfect or better. That's all I got… one thing I can say.. I'm really satisfied how this image captures how I'm feeling… and it's not requiring me to fix it, make it pretty, perfect or better.
There is something profoundly comforting even in that. love Denise xo A special day of remembering… artjournal today… venting on the page first… then colour over the top… then.. played with a wet brush with white and this being kindof arrived… as they do.. I guess. on a Friday 17 years ago today we got the bitter and very twisted news that our sister had been killed.. it was an horrific tragedy that has had an irrevocable impact on her children. I guess I reached acceptance many years ago.. but remembrance is deeper.. and has a sacredness to it. love Denise xo
out all day in a meeting.. only time for this quick 'Womandala' tonight … hopefully… time to paint tomorrow.
Denise x Today started well… quite special really… I made a beautiful circle 'blessing symbol' as I sat out in some morning sun… I wrote more about that over on 'asipofmytea.com' … little aura in her disney chipmunk suit 'her sister' Alex bought her. :) then… the day progressed in to shitville… and just because I'm 'creating something every day' to keep true to this challenge… you get to see my shitty journal page. Luckily I know … 'this too will pass'… and now it's time to go and cook dinner. I guess it's what might be called a classic mix of the sacred.. and the profane… bye for now, Denise x later that night,
I played with some golden open acrylics on a tiny wee canvas that I'd sort of started earlier in the day but had given up on… and this happened… trying out a new-to-me product .. was very satisfying after earlier feelings of 'meh'. a whole lot of wondering and not much painting went on today… this was done over the top of some writing in a large journal.. a Woman arrives from who knows where… she seems African.. and the under paint was magenta pink.. and over the course of the afternoon it's gone sooo pink! realised the studio has turned into an energy sucking tip… so… cleaning out is desperately needed.
D x top left, mad quick journal page… I wanted to do an artist holding a cup… but.. didn't leave enough room on the page.. so.. yeah top right, her again..(she began as a painting I did as part of a live stream to paint our 'Inner Healer') still going.. she's a bit of a practice piece.. I'm practicing letting go.. bringing back.. letting go.. bringing back… it's not easy.. but I keep telling myself it's a worthwhile exercise in releasing my comfort zone around painting.. to that end.. bottom left.. I've started layering over the top of a painting I did a few years ago.. it didn't sell.. and now i loath it.. so.. under the layers it's going. and bottom right.. same layering over the top.. decided I'd quite like a white on white on white kind of background.. so.. will have to see how I play on those this week. Oh… you know that confidence thing… and self belief thing… well… I sometimes have that arise when I put myself out there to teach a workshop or have an exhibtion.. you know.. you 'show up' and hope 'others will come to your party'… well today a lovely lady who had reserved her space at my Gypsy Retreaty Workshop.. actually came to my place and slipped her payment in an envelope under my door. I am so grateful for that action of absolutely belief in me and my offering… its a blessing for me to receive and to give, thanks beautiful Woman for believing in me, I look forward to having a very special two days painting with you. xo that's it for today,
love Denise x aaaah.. I'm late to post… but.. want to keep them in order.. so here's yesterday's 'efforts'. consciously wanting to break out of old patterns that no longer serve.. a desire for letting a little more wildness in … if not on the canvas… where? Surely.. I can allow any emotion to show up.. it's only on paper.. or board… let.. it… be. lower right is now she 'really looks' others are fab app's on iphone.
bye for now, it's Monday!.. I have to get on with that! love Denise xo and… HappyAnniversaryToPhillip&Me24YearsToday :) A bit of a melancholy start to my day.. pondering how it would have been my sisters 58th birthday (she died in '97) … and having a go with the loose style I've learned a bit from Misty Mawn.. so I keep trying it in my art journal.. funny how I can be much more free on the page sometimes…. maybe because it's not 'fraught with added expectations' . .. and as an astute artist I met said… "oh.. and you can hide it".
Day 14… and I am still keen to keep this thing going.. and w a n t t o f r e e u p s o m e m o r e bye for now, love Denise. out all day.. in meetings.. so.. this is the result of 10 minutes in a repurposed book / art journal . . love Denise xo
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